Back to the Beginning

Well, I'm back down to my previous heaviest weight. I weigh what I did when I started this blog... I've lost 8 pounds in a week by eating right and cutting out junky snacks. Plus, Keegan has been a HUGE help. He keeps me on track, and I keep him on track. It's so much easier when someone is doing it with you.

I've been grilling a lot of my food lately, which is actually one of my favorite preparations of foods, but I didn't have a grill until recently. We eat a lot of chicken and fish along with veggies. I try to change it up every day so we don't get tired of the same old food. This week, I've made Siracha Lime Grilled Shrimp with a Sweet Chili Sauce, Lemon Pepper Salmon with Peas, Sweet Heat Grilled Chicken and Broccoli, Tuna Cakes, and we even went out for Mexican food one night.

I went to the Royals game last night with some friends and splurged on a pizza, but I was still under my calorie budget, AND I still lost weight! I hope I can keep ahold of this motivation!!!

Starting Weight: 330

Current Weight: 322

Pounds Lost: 8

Pounds to Go: 132

Oh, boy...

I really don't even want to post...I'm so mad at myself. I haven't posted in months, and I've just been gaining and gaining. I want to blame it on my busy life, my boyfriend, work, etc., but I know it's all on me. I just lose all self-control sometimes and then it takes me literally FOREVER to get back on the wagon. I stepped on the scale the other day and cried. I'm at the heaviest I've ever been. I gained back all my weight and then some (8 more pounds to be exact). I've let myself down, and it hurts. I know I can do it, but then again I feel like it's impossible. It's so easy to just go grab fast food or snack on junk food when I get hungry, but then I way overdo it. I'm so upset at myself because a lot of my clothes don't even fit right anymore, and I feel sluggish and giant all the time.

But, I've decided to try and get back on track. Weight Watchers was a gift from my mom, and as long as she saw me using it and losing weight, she said she'd keep paying for it. She stopped a while back because she could tell I'd given up on even trying.

Anyway, Keegan even offered to help me by joining Lose It! and eating right with me. So far, so good. I still don't feel that all-in, 110% motivation I had when I started Weight Watchers, but he's helping me get back into it. He even kept me on track yesterday when I wanted to grab seconds at dinner. He didn't tell me no, but he didn't take seconds, and that made me really think about what I wanted to do. I can't tell you how grateful I am to have him.

We're headed to his grandparents' house this weekend, and Shirley always makes chicken fried steak and mashed potatoes or something, so it's going to be really tough to stay on track this weekend, but I think that, together, we can do it.

I'm going to try and start posting more often. This blog really helped me stay on track last time. I also need to get back into my exercise routine, and now that school's out and summer school ends at noon, maybe I'll get motivated to hop on the treadmill or the bike. Fingers crossed!

 I've earned 2 badges so far on Lose It!, Keegan and I added each other to help motivate/keep us on track, and I posted my awful, terrible, embarrassing weight... (Also, I started wearing my Fitbit again to help motivate me to get off my butt.

Starting Weight: 330

Current Weight: 326.2

Pounds Lost: 3.8

Pounds to Go: 136.2

❤️ 3 Months ❤️

So, this post isn't exactly diet-related, but I wanted to write about it anyway. Last night, Keegan and I celebrated dating for 3 months. I know that's not a long time, but it's the longest and happiest relationship I've ever been in. He is so amazing and wonderful.
We went to Warrensburg to see Mockingjay, but the line was way too long, so we went to Players for dessert instead. We ended up getting appetizers and desserts (even though we had already eaten dinner at our house). I know I went way over my points for the day, but it was a special day and I felt like celebrating. I'm back on track today and plan to be extra good this weekend, even though it's hard to stay with it when I go home to see friends and family. (See? I worked in a diet aspect to my mushy post!)
If you know me, you know that I was never a very openly emotional person. That was true until I started dating Keegan. He brings out all the emotions (good and bad) in me and I enjoy it and hate it all at the same time. I couldn't imagine it being any other way now, though. I love him wholeheartedly, and he tells me all the time that he feels the same. I've never been so happy, and I can't wait to see what the future brings. ❤️

Weigh-In Wednesday

Today's Weight:

281.2

Ugh...I know, I know. I didn't post the past couple of weeks because I was so mad at myself. I gained so much and got really frustrated. But I think it kind of kicked me back into gear. I've been officially 100% back on Weight Watchers since last Wednesday and plan on sticking with it. (I know I say that all the time, but I really want it this time.) I bought tons of healthy food at Costco this past weekend and have been really good about saying "no" to things that I know I shouldn't eat. Keegan even got on the bandwagon with me and we worked out a way that I can exercise and cook healthy meals. Before, I didn't want to exercise because I wanted to spend time with him and then I wanted to make delicious (bad for you) food that I knew he'd like, but we had a long, heartfelt talk about how I need to do this for myself and he's 100% supportive. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. Also, speaking of exercising, I'm back on a regular exercise schedule and do 15 minutes on the bike, 15 minutes on the treadmill, and 30 minutes of physical therapy with weights and resistance bands. I feel so much better when I eat well and exercise even though it's not fun to do. My only worry is next week during Thanksgiving break. Let's hope I have really good will power!

 

Total Weight Loss: 40.8 pounds

Only 101.2 to go!

Weigh-In Wednesday

Today's Weight:

276.2

Happy Weigh-In Wednesday, everybody! Well, I gained 3.6 pounds since last Wednesday. I think part of it was I didn't eat well until about Saturday. I finally feel back on track, so I'm not going to let this affect my motivation. I also think part of it was that my scale seems to be glitching (it tells me 10 different weights that are about 10 pounds off of each other). Time for another new scale?? Anyway, I'm still on track for today (even with cheesecake at lunch). I can do this. I will do this. Cross your fingers for me!!

 

Total Weight Loss: 45.8 pounds

Only 96.2 to go!

Back on the Bandwagon!

Hello, blog world. I feel like we haven't talked much for the past couple of months other than a weekly (usually late) Weigh-In Wednesday. BUT, I'm officially back on the bandwagon of my Weight Watchers diet and plan to post much more often about my progress/struggles. My boyfriend, Keegan, told me that he supports me in my weight loss journey and would even be willing to diet with me. He claims he won't complain about whatever I decide to make for meals (we'll see...) and he'll make sure he doesn't try and sabotage me with tempting sweets and snacks. I went out for meal twice yesterday and still stayed within my points (or pretty close to it)! I also went to Costco this weekend and stocked up on all my normal healthy snacks (instead of Hot Cheetos and Doritos). I'm feeling confident that I can continue to stick with it from here on out. I just really need the support from my family and friends (and my wonderful boyfriend). Hopefully they keep me motivated and on track (without hounding me). I really want to do this for myself more than anyone else, so if I fail, I'll feel like I failed myself. I don't want that, so I'm not going to let that happen! Here's to being back on the bandwagon!

Go Royals!!!

Weigh-In Wednesday

Today's Weight:

272.6

Happy Weigh-In Wednesday, everyone! I actually posted on a Wednesday for once! I lost 0.2 pounds this week. Not a lot, but still a loss! I'll take that! I really haven't been tracking very good lately, so I need to work on that. I've been exercising a bit more (physical therapy and housework), but I want to get back to doing my treadmill and other exercise equipment. Hopefully I find that motivation! It's parent-teacher conference week, so it's been super stressful, but hopefully I'll find the time to stay on track and exercise! :)

Total Weight Loss: 49.4 pounds

Only 92.6 to go!

Weigh-In Thursday

Today's Weight:

272.8

Happy Weigh-In (Thursday?), everyone! I had a bit of a crazy week with a doctor's appointment in Kansas about my shoulder, so I wasn't home Wednesday morning to weigh myself. I weighed this morning, though, and I lost 0.5 pounds!! Yay!!! And now that I have to do physical therapy every day for an hour, I'm somewhat back on the exercise wagon. I have to do stretch bands and weights for 60 minutes a day to work on strengthening my shoulder muscles. Hopefully this trend keeps up!

Total Weight Loss: 49.2 pounds

Only 92.8 to go!